Month: October 2018

Parental inattention

Parental inattentionForeBrain Porn If I get annoyed at things, I sometimes get into a bad mood and it only gets amplified by past emotional injuries that I haven’t dealt with. A big one, or a culmination of a few, is my perceived inattention from my parents, especially my mother. Now, before I sound like I’m […]

Too much recovery?

Too much recovery?ForeBrain Porn In some fellowships of recovery, there is some shame associated to a lack of participation. In others, there is shame associated to a lack of time spent outside of the allotted meeting times. All in all, there is always something to be shamed about or for. As shame is a big […]

Old journals and memories

Old journals and memoriesForeBrain Porn I was looking through my parents’ basement earlier today for a notebook that wasn’t too used so that I could start writing down: – 3 goals for the day – organize my weekly schedule – write down ideas – etc, you get the point… (I got the idea from this […]

Self promotion and rejection

Self promotion and rejectionForeBrain Porn A few months ago I started a business, and then a few months later I started another one. Of course, I got nervous both times, and even though I have them under my belt now I still get nervous about them. They are a whole part of me as I […]

Gym goals and self defeat

Gym goals and self defeatForeBrain Porn I’ve always liked going to the gym. I’ve also always liked playing sports, not watching, but playing. I was at the gym for the first time in a while last night, and I was talking to a friend who was writing down all of his progress and what have […]

Practiced negativity

Practiced negativityForeBrain Porn I never used to understand mindfulness, and I was never able to differentiate it from learned behaviour, but now I think they go hand in hand. Last evening, I went out on the bike and right before leaving I threw the frisbee in the bag, and texted a few friends to go […]

Owning up

Owning upForeBrain Porn I don’t know how to start this one, other than with the story itself. I was walking out of a building for a client when i got a message from a friend: “Call me ASAP”. I had 4% battery life left on the phone, and some time so I called and arranged […]

I don’t know what I’m doing

I don’t know what I’m doingForeBrain Porn Simply put I don’t often feel like I know what I’m doing, and it scares me. I referee youth sports, do first aid at a high level, own a couple of businesses, and every time I am about to embark on something new, I get insecure. I get […]

Annoyed at work

Annoyed at workForeBrain Porn I used to get annoyed at work for many different reasons, I still do, but I used to too, and this is a post about why it happens to me. In the past, I would never advance, get promotions or raises for a few reasons. I had no idea how getting […]

Did I do anything wrong?

Did I do anything wrong?ForeBrain Porn The other day my parents, my brother and I had a dinner together. That really doesn’t happen often as my parents and I live in the same town, and my brother lives 5 hours away. This occasion was thanksgiving even if our family only takes advantage of the long […]

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