My illusion of

My illusion ofThe DRS Just under an hour ago I was fed a dose of reality by a man I know is honest in everything he says. We were at a party, and he came up to me after I walked around the room saying hello to a bunch of people I know. We started […]

What do you do for fun?

What do you do for fun?ForeBrain Porn In the middle of our weekly checkup in a group therapy I was taking part of, the counsellor interrupted me and said: “What do you do for fun?”. I hate that question. I work a lot, I do a million things at once, and part of me knows […]

What do you do for fun?

What do you do for fun?ForeBrain Porn In the middle of our weekly checkup in a group therapy I was taking part of, the counsellor interrupted me and said: “What do you do for fun?”. I hate that question. I work a lot, I do a million things at once, and part of me knows […]

A date

A dateForeBrain Porn It is through dating that I understand that my issues with addiction come from much deeper seated problems. Addiction is generally known as a manifestation of more profound hurting. My past and present views on dating and relationships are just another manifestation of them all. Innately, I feel alone, like I’m not […]

Parental inattention

Parental inattentionForeBrain Porn If I get annoyed at things, I sometimes get into a bad mood and it only gets amplified by past emotional injuries that I haven’t dealt with. A big one, or a culmination of a few, is my perceived inattention from my parents, especially my mother. Now, before I sound like I’m […]

Too much recovery?

Too much recovery?ForeBrain Porn In some fellowships of recovery, there is some shame associated to a lack of participation. In others, there is shame associated to a lack of time spent outside of the allotted meeting times. All in all, there is always something to be shamed about or for. As shame is a big […]

Old journals and memories

Old journals and memoriesForeBrain Porn I was looking through my parents’ basement earlier today for a notebook that wasn’t too used so that I could start writing down: – 3 goals for the day – organize my weekly schedule – write down ideas – etc, you get the point… (I got the idea from this […]

Self promotion and rejection

Self promotion and rejectionForeBrain Porn A few months ago I started a business, and then a few months later I started another one. Of course, I got nervous both times, and even though I have them under my belt now I still get nervous about them. They are a whole part of me as I […]

Gym goals and self defeat

Gym goals and self defeatForeBrain Porn I’ve always liked going to the gym. I’ve also always liked playing sports, not watching, but playing. I was at the gym for the first time in a while last night, and I was talking to a friend who was writing down all of his progress and what have […]

Practiced negativity

Practiced negativityForeBrain Porn I never used to understand mindfulness, and I was never able to differentiate it from learned behaviour, but now I think they go hand in hand. Last evening, I went out on the bike and right before leaving I threw the frisbee in the bag, and texted a few friends to go […]

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